Personality

What about that personality of mine then, that will make this writing worthwhile? I believe I am a leader of some sort. I mean, I feel that sometimes I get this clear idea of what is the best to do next for the group I’m in, and I can communicate it and people want to follow me. I also have an eye for spotting strengths of people in the group, and sympathy to understand why people want or don’t want to do certain things. I’m also lazy enough to not have that need to do everything myself that some people seem to be hindered by. I have lately realized that in almost all my fulfilling roles I’ve had professionally, I have been a leader of some sort, helping an entire group to improve and work smoothly together. I have never really thrived in an environment of isolation or where the sole focus has been on doing things on my own. It becomes boring quickly. At the same time, I’ve never had a role (other than as referee) where I was formally the leader. I’ve just become one off the record, in the trenches. And to apply for such a role of formal leadership is scary, because I sense they might require more commitment in terms of time, which would mean less freedom. I love freedom. I love having part time commitments with flexible schedules. I don’t mind working in the middle of the night sometimes, as long as it’s no more than a few hours in a row and I get paid handsomely per hour. I’ve been applying to various such part time, freelance gigs in the last week. Eight of them, I believe. I’m excited to hear back from them, since it would be fun to have one more gig beside my consulting job at least on stand-by, if it turns out that my consulting job can only really pay my bills in the fall. But I digress. I want to show you more of my personality. I want to tell you who I am. But do I even have the words to describe that? And even if I did, would the words mean the same to you as to me? I guess this problem is at the heart of all communication, and that one of the foundational questions of human existence must be this: Can there be any true communication? Is there ever a situation when the expression of one human is understood clearly and uncontaminatedly by another human? Probably not. But maybe that is part of it, that the recipient is in fact so involved in the communication that undistorted transmission is not only unachievable but also undesirable.