Will Anyone Hear

Once again I’ve made a post on Facebook to share some of my innermost thoughts. I wonder why I sometimes get such urges. It makes me feel like an artist, it makes me feel alive. At the same time, probably very few, if anyone, will even listen. And of those who listen, will anyone really hear? Because listening to me is of no value. Hearing the voice of truth is everything. But will that voice of truth be possible to hear through the words formed in my heart and typed by my hands? If God is everything he claims to be, then the answer is yes. At the same time, if God is everything he claims to be, what could I possibly contribute? But then again, God has this mysterious habit of using frail humans to forward his plans and his kingdom. I so wish to be part of that somehow. At the same time, I worry about putting the carriage before the horse and acting without the Holy Spirit, in which case any and all of my efforts are futile.

About artists, by the way. If a person does not show their art but keeps it secret, they will never be known as an artist. Does this mean they’re are not an artist, or does it mean that they are such a true artist that they don’t even need the acknowledgment of others? And where am I on the scale? Most of the time when I really want to share something, it is because I desire to stir some emotion or thought in others. That I get the feeling when I look at my work that someone else might actually get something out of it. But how can I be sure that this is not simply a need for affirmation in disguise? I dream of writing something grand. And my reasons are two-fold. It’s both that I want to really make an impact with people, and that I want to be recognized as wise and eloquent. Is that a problem? I think that it might be a good combination, that some less noble cause can help the more noble cause to fly. I think it’s the same way for politicians and leaders. For instance, is it not so that a truly great leader would never run for President of the United States if he or she did not also possess some level of delusions of grandeur?